Reflections Of A Man Without Trust
Dec 08 '00 (Updated Dec 13 '00)
I've been wondering lately what the hell am I doing here. I mean in reality, I have never been inspired to write about anything until last year. I picked up a pen and notebook and started scribbling uncontrollably about anything. It was as if something possessed me with the urge to tell my story. It didn't matter what the story was about, I just had to articulate my experiences in life. Even if it's about the toenail clippers I bought recently. After some serious thought, I found myself doing what I always do, analyzing others and myself. Now before you fill my comments section b!tchin & griping about this has nothing to do with "The Benefits Of The Web of Trust", let me get my rant out and then have at it.
The Man In The Mirror
I can honestly say that I am not a trusting person. Not in the true sense of the word. Maybe it's how I was raised, my profession, or my life experiences. I just don't seem to really trust people very often. When you don't trust people, you don't tell them about yourself. A perfect example of this happened last night as I sat and listened to my son tell me about a nightmare he had. I realized that like me, he loves to tell stories but only in the third person. He (and I), love to share experiences but in the manner of putting on a show rather than having an intimate conversation with another person.
What does this have to do with trust and a silly website about product reviews? Everything! By writing here, I have shared some intimate details of my personal life in the first person. Something I would never do face to face. I've written about my Marriage, Divorce, Fatherhood, & Death. I've also made mention of the friends I have made here. Yes, although I've never ate dinner at their house or borrowed $10.00 for gas, they're people here that have given me personal guidance and helped me understand myself and others better. I am forever a student of human behavior and where better to learn than here. I just wish that this site had more topics about real life, like current events, sex, and people's personal experiences beyond if they should spank their kids or not.
Building Trust In The Cyber Ghetto
As I said before, about a year ago I was struck with an evil spirit that forced me to start writing. Coincidentally, I stumbled into Epinions about 6 months ago. I felt relieved as I had a forum to put my scribbles now. This little hole in the Internet world has allowed me a place to vent. When I'm not profiling minority motorist or taking bribes from the local store owners, I can come here and tell people what I think about almost anything. This open forum allows people to exchange ideas and opinions without the fear of getting their a$$ kicked, except verbally. I've taken some verbal whippin's and dished a few out too. I've always said that nothing makes a man more humble than a good punch in the nose. If you haven't been humbled here, stick around. It's bound to happen.
Cleaning Up & Starting New
I have watched my WOT grow modestly and hope it continues to grow. You see, the pennies mean nothing to me. What matters to me is the communication, the objectivity, and the chance to read what people have in their minds. I firmly believe that when we write down what we think, it is what we REALLY feel, not what pours out from between our lips. My WOT has taken on a new meaning as of today. I will be editing it in the near future. If I remove you, do not be offended and if you chop me off yours, I won't bludgeon you to death (well maybe). But I want a new start and I want my WOT to reflect a list of people that I really trust. People that I'd drink beer or smoke a blunt with. No I don't smoke weed, but I hope you get the point. What are the benefits? Probably none when it comes to hits or pennies. But now I can look at my list with honor and know that when I get read and rated, it's from people that I really trust. To me, that's the only benefit I need!
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Location: Chicago, Illinois
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